Vegas!

In Vegas my girlfriends and I did a lot of:

(pool lounging)

this.....

(eating the yummiest food, one of the reasons I like this city)

this...

(took many, many photos!)

and this....

(window shopped!)

not to mention walking a TON, chatting non stop, seeing many gorgeous casinos, staying up late and getting up early, and LAUGHING! We had a blast!

what's on my mind this week.

I am having some self-esteem issues. I hate feeling like I have to look a certain way. Not really when it comes to clothing or style, but with my body. I feel so gross and fat lately. I shouldn't, I know I shouldn't, but I do. I could make wiser eating decisions and I know I am at a healthy weight but I just don't feel good about it.

I know a lot of it is coming from the fact that next weekend I will be going to Vegas with some girlfriends. They are some really great close friends from the salon I just left. We had booked a trip to go to the annual Hair and Beauty Show a few months back, and I am still going even though I don't work there anymore (I paid already).

Anyway, all the girls are so beautiful and fit. I feel like I am going to be the ugly duckling in the group. They have been working on their figures for this trip for MONTHS now, and of course I have not (I am not single and going there to impress anyone). So I am just dreading going there and having to get in my swimsuit. I love my friends so dearly I just hate being self-conscious.

And why is it the worse I feel about my body the worse I eat?? I should be cracking down these few days before I go, but NO I can't stop eating junk. It's out of control. I must be an emotional eater. LOVELY.

Arizona, you're beautiful

driving around in the desert finding unique photo spots was super fun with Tiffany....Arizona can be gorgeous....

until you turn around and see this....

(more of Tiffanys photos here)

kick in the pants.

Man this weekend has been awful. I am dealing with some internal emotional struggles that seem to surface all.the.time (ie wanting a baby...terribly bad), a sick husband, and now I am sick with it too. I think it is a 24 hour flu bug. It was awful Saturday night and Sunday, and now I am getting my appetite back and not feeling so dizzy. Pepto Bismol has helped at TON, although when you are nauseous drinking thick, chunky pink liquid that tastes like toothpaste made me want to barf more.

I feel like a real jerk for not believing my husband was sick when he first mentioned not feeling well. His eyeballs are red from broken blood vessels that burst when he had the violent pukes.

I guess I deserved to catch it...

Playing Catch-Up

These past few weeks we have:

smelt the roses/tulips,

watched Alice in Wonderland,

In 3d,

ate at a fancy place in Phoenix,
held a cuddly baby,
watched a cute blondie turn 3,
celebrated Chris' birthday,

got an iPad,

held a cute baby again (who may or may not have put a spell on my husband. He held her and said in a round about way that he wants one. What an angel :)