What happened in 4months?

I cannot believe it has been 4 months since I posted anything here. What on earth.
When google reader went out, I stopped reading all blogs. I used to read them on my phone every morning, but then the app was deleted and I forgot about blogging. I also deleted flickr from my phone, and twitter, and vine...you know, just trying to get rid of all that extra junk I was doing. Time wasters (well flickr just took up too much memory).
ANYWAY, the point being, when I stopped reading other blogs, I stopped caring about mine. And that made me think I was doing it just because other people were, or because I wanted to impress others. That is not who I want to be. I won't be posting here regularly, but I do want to update my few readers on several life changes that happened.
Since June, we:

Sold our house. It went on the market in June, and we sold it in July and moved out July 31st. We were living with our gracious family for 8 weeks while the new home was being built. We just moved into our new home a week ago (this pic is old, obviously). It is only a few miles away from where we were. We love the new location so much. It feels perfect here!




Found out we were expecting #2! We found out in July we were pregnant. We had been trying to conceive since January and had a few bumps in the road. We were thrilled but cautious to share the news. I am now 18 weeks along. I have been feeling so great lately. During the first move (packing our old house up), I was so so sick. Just super nauseous and exhausted. Thankfully it didnt last too long!





Also, we found out its a girl!!





Exciting couple months around here! If you want to follow me on instagram, my name is @shayworley and I post there almost daily I am ashamed to say. Belly pics, house pics, Everett pics! So thats where I am most active right now.

I miss this.

When I was pregnant, it felt like a lifetime. Not because I didn't enjoy it, or because I felt miserable (I didn't), but because I couldn't wait to be a mother. Now that I am a mom, I terribly miss being pregnant. Funny how that works!

I loved being pregnant. It was an amazingly easy pregnancy. My biggest complaints were joint pain and heartburn. I miss having wonderfully thick hair, a cute belly to dress, an excuse to eat whatever I wanted, feeling kicks of my unborn baby, watching a baby move and flip in my belly, and not having to "suck it in". Of course, theres many more aspects that I loved, but I think it makes me sad that I barely remember what it was like to be pregnant. Next time around, if there is a next time, I will cherish it much much more.

I don't know if I ever shared these photos, but these were taken less than a week before Everett was born.

My Birth Story

(I can't believe I just titled a post that!)

Wednesday, May 10th 2011

It was a normal day. Chris came home early, he had been in training and was supposed to be all week. The week before, he was urging the baby to come. He wanted me to go into labor so badly, but then he found out about this training and wanted it to wait another week. I was fine with that. We went to the mall, Chris had a haircut scheduled there, and walked around for a while. It was a beautiful night, so cool outside for May (its an outdoor mall).

One point I stepped off the curb and thought I wet my pants a little. I didn't think anything of it (besides yuck), but looking back I am sure that was the start of my water leaking.

We got home, where twice I went pee and when I stood up, I kept leaking. Then I ironed one of Chris' work shirts and when I bent over to unplug the iron I felt another trickle. I was so confused. I thought it was pee. It wasn't much, just a small trickle. We googled things like "did my water break or did I pee myself", and "how do you know if your water breaks", only to learn that less than 15% of women actually have their water break naturally, and amnionic fluid is clear and odorless. Well, my pee had been as well. And honestly, it feels a lot like peeing when it comes out.

I had no clue what was going on, but I didn't have any other labor signs. I decided to go to bed, figuring if it was my water the bed would be soaked (I put a towel down).

May 11, 2011

The next morning I woke up to a dry bed and decided to go into work. Once at work, I got by for about an hour before the leaking started again. I stepped out to call the doctors office who of course told me to go right to the hospital. I immediately started bawling. I was so overwhelmed and nervous. I left right away (after a call to my husband) and headed toward the hospital. I was about a mile away when I realized, I need to go home! I had nothing with me, I needed to eat (I was starving and knew the hospital wouldn't let me), I wanted to shower, I didn't want to have 2 cars at the hospital, and the thought of buying groceries even crossed my mind (I didn't go ha). Chris met me at home with McDonalds breakfast and we got our things and left for the hospital.

We arrived around 11am, got checked in and sent to triage. They checked the fluid that was leaking (gross), and did a cervical check where I was 2cm dialated. It was indeed my water! I was so relieved that I wasn't crazy, and that I didn't go to the hospital only to be sent home. My doctor was at the hospital and came and saw me in triage. He explained pitocin to us and said I can get an epidural anytime. I got my IV (not painful whatsoever), signed a ton of paperwork and we were moved to our labor and delivery room.

I got started on pitocin, since my bag of water had broke and they worry about infection at 24 hours post water breaking. I was terrified of the pitocin. I braced myself for the worst pain of my life (which there wasn't a need to)! My mom came at some point then, and I started watching a Tori and Dean marathon. I was so thrilled they had cable TV, since we don't at home. It was enough to keep me distracted. Then I wanted to move around and start getting this baby out. I was hooked up to mobile monitors and got on the birthing ball and starting pacing the room. Moving really helped the pain (which was still very mild). Once I decided to lay back down, the pain got a lot worse. I was 4.5 hours in at this point, and thought with contractions this painful I was for sure more dilated (they wouldn't check me much for risk of infection. I had only the one check at this point). I decided after about 7 or 8 very painful and close contractions to get my epidural. I knew I was going to have one all along, and I wasn't trying to be a hero by waiting!

Around 4:30, the anesthesiologist came in, and immediately I started shaking. Shaking so very hard. I was so nervous and scared to have the epidural put in. Chris held my hand and I tried to relax. Honestly, I felt nothing. NOTHING. Not the prick from the numbing medicine, not the catheter going into my spine, not the "weird pressure" she told me I would have. NOTHING. At one point I almost ask if she had even done anything yet, but I was afraid her answer would be "no" so I didn't. The next thing I know, I am laying back down, and I did feel the cold medicine going into my back, followed by numbness. HEAVEN, I tell you. Epidurals are heaven!!

My doctor came in after the epidural to check me again. This was the devastating part: I was still a 2. UGH I couldn't believe I got my epidural so early! I felt like a serious wimp! I was relieved to know that when I got my epidural, my pitocin drip was the highest it could be with my doctors order to up it. Which he did. Over the next 4 hours, we had family come hang out and visit with us, I tried to sleep (unsuccessful), and watched more TV. The time in the labor room really flew by for me. I know Chris said it drug on for him, but I was actually enjoying it. At this point I was progressing about 1 cm/hour.

Around 9, all company left. The nurse checked me again, and when she did, I felt a big "pop" (I was 5cm). She said another bag of water broke! At this point, I started feeling more pain through the drugs. I pressed my epidural button to give me some relief, and when I did that, the baby's heart rate dropped. Chris got very scared, and we called in the nurse, who explained that that happend when his head is coming very low in the birth canal. This labor was moving fast, finally!

At 10pm, I was 8 cm!

At 10:30, I was fully dialated and did some pushing with the nurses. I had no idea what I was doing. I didn't feel the need to push, but I could feel pressure. It felt like something was trying to come out of me (duh), I don't know how else to explain it. Pushing was so exhausting for me. I could barely hold my breath for the count of 10, and kept apologizing for giving up. They finally gave me oxygen, which help a lot. There were some points where I knew I should push, since I could feel the pressure of his head, but I would keep quiet so I could rest.

Around 11:15ish, they called my doctor to come in (he had left for the night but came back for me, he is awesome!!). About 11:30pm, I was told not to push anymore. I could feel a lot of pressure and I knew his head was right there! I still didn't feel the need to push, it was almost like my body was doing it for me. I was able to relax and wait.

Once the doctor got there, I started shaking again like when I got my epidural. I was terrified and knew this was it! The doctor started to get dressed, and I got so sick to my stomach. Chris was at my head, and I told him I was going to be sick. The nurse put a barf bucket to my face and I started vomiting. The first puke was so violent, it pushed the head out. YES, I puked my son out!

I yelled right away, "his head is out, his head is out!!!", then resumed puking. Chris said the doctor didn't even have his gloves on at this point. The next few throw ups pushed out his body, and I heard him crying. I didn't "see" him be born, because of getting sick, but they put him on my chest and cleaned him up.

It was amazing, overwhelming, and surreal all at once. Chris cut the cord and they took him to be cleaned. At this point, he was still nameless. We had a short list: Sawyer (my choice), Theodore (Chris' choice), and Everett (kinda mutual). We had thrown Everett around the week before, but Chris never said yes or no. I love the name, and its a bonus that it is Chris' grandpas middle name. The doctor had stitched me up and left, and he was still nameless! Finally after about 30 minutes, we decided on Everett Dean. I love it!

He was born at 11:48pm on May 11, 2011. He was 12 minutes shy of sharing his birthday with our anniversary. I am glad he got his own day! We celebrated our anniversary as a family of 3 the next day at the hospital. We are so in love with our son. It is truly the greatest blessing of all. He is just so adorable, and looks a lot like his daddy. I often just stare at him, and well up with tears of joy.

38 weeks

We are almost there! I am happy to be done with these self portraits, ugh they are horrible! Manual focus on a tripod is HARD folks! Maybe we will see you at 40 weeks, maybe not!

a t-shirt story.

When I was very newly pregnant, like 5 weeks, Chris went out of town. We had only known for one week that we were expecting (although we thought we were farther along than we really were). He was in Salt Lake City for a work training conference, and when I picked him up from the airport after being apart for 4 very long days, he gave me a present:

This t-shirt. He said, "I can't wait until you are big and pregnant to wear this shirt!" So a couple Saturdays ago, when we were having a VERY lazy day, thats what I did. I wore this shirt and he laughed and laughed. I did too.

Finally.

No, not the flavor. It is a very yummy new flavor, only available at Target...but this is what I've been waiting for:

My very own food shelf. It comes in handy.

Random 37 weeks.

AH! Its MAY!! I am due in May! This is nuts!

Here is a post of random events at 37 weeks. Ready? go.

This feels about right:




Most days I can still see my feet. Most days :)



I am officially waddling. Its cool. I totally know what they say about having a "bowling ball" between your legs.

I can still eat, and eat, and eat. My hunger never goes away, and never feels satisfied. Its surprising that I've only gained 25lbs (well, I will find out tomorrow at the Dr. afternoon if thats still right, but their scale is more evil than the one at home).

I have contractions often. Most of the time they hurt, but only in my low belly.

Still no stretch marks (knock on wood. I didn't even want to write this down for fear of jinxing myself!!)

We are 100% ready for the baby. Car seat base in the cars, diapers/wipes stocked, swing up in the living room, pack in play in our room, hospital bag packed, clothes washed and lots more!!

I am not really nesting yet. My husband wishes I would start because that would mean a cleaner house :)

Sleeping is still good. When I have to get out of bed to use the restroom (only once a night) or turn over, my hips ache severely and it makes moving in my sleep hard. Other than that, I can sleep through anything. I prefer to sleep on my back too, I know thats not recommended, but its more comfy for me. When I sleep on my side he kicks at the mattress all night.

I still like being pregnant. I am a crazy emotional woman right now but its ok. I have hardly anything to complain about.

He will come in perfect timing. He can take his time, but please don't make me wait TOO long!

As of late.

photo was taken at 35 weeks

Man. I just haven't felt like myself lately. I'm beyond tired at moments, and other moments I am fine. Some days I am happy and other days watch out. Little miss grumpy pants takes over.

I hate this. I hate that how I feel and my moods are so drastic. I feel crazy most days! (sometimes I think I am going crazy).

I think if I were to sum up these last 4 weeks of pregnancy it would be: PMS. I feel like how I would the week before my period comes: annoyed, grouchy, tired, crampy, weepy and irritable.

Can I just make an announcement now to apologize to everyone for this?? I want to be a sweet girl again too. I'm sorry if I haven't been.

Last night and today I was having some serious pain. My whole belly ached so bad, and I was having serious menstrual like cramps. They were mainly in my lower back and legs. I didn't keep track of the contractions, because it really hurt! I am now officially worried about myself and my pain tolerance. How am I going to do this?? I'm freaking out. Yikes.

36 weeks

New baby photo!

(our son, 34 weeks, profile, making a kissy/sucky mouth)

Last week I was a "model" for some ultrasound students at the hospital I am delivering at. I found out about it through my birthing class.

I thought it would be a great chance to get one last look at the baby before we meet him! I was so grateful to see his face. although it was a very fast ultrasound, and the students just had to find and measure his heartbeat, which seemed very easy for everyone since he is so big and his back is right up against my belly. I was SO excited when the first girl put the wand very low on my belly and said, "head". Phew! He is head down (hopefully for good??). I have been having a hard time figuring out what body part I am feeling, and to know his feet were on my left side, back on the right, head and hands down low makes me feel like I know whats going on in there!

They got a really good look at his face for me. He had his hands in his mouth the whole time, except for one moment they were out and he was sucking and searching for them! It was so sweet. He looks like he has big lips.

One thing that freaked me out was they kept saying "her" and "she" when referring to the baby. Finally, I asked for them to make sure I am still having a boy. They looked, there's no doubt its actually a "he"!

I think since last week he has flipped, not upside down but definitely switched sides. I noticed after the ultrasound his hiccups were always on my right (just that week, they haven't always been) but then, driving in the car last night I felt a big movement, it took my breath away (ok I screamed :). Then about an hour later, his hiccups were on my left. I just hope his head stays down!

baby shower #2!

My close group of girlfriends that I met through the first salon I worked at (over 2 years ago, and we are still as close as ever), threw me a little dinner shower at Joes Farm Grill! I loved this place, the atmosphere, and how you can sit outside and enjoy the big trees and nice weather. Well, of course the one night we go it is pouring rain! I was so upset about this, I know its crazy, but we still had a great time!

and why don't I eat here more often? their fried zucchini and bbq chicken pizza were amazing!!

April showers...

brings a May baby :) My mom, sister and close family friend threw me a shower with close friends and family. We had it at my house, and it was a storybook/nursery rhyme theme. I thought it was cute and subtle, since I really hate themed things (which is why some would say our nursery isn't very "babyish").

Thanks everyone for making me feel so special! I know my son will be so loved!

Some baby photos of us: mini pies (I am not a cake person, but pie I LOVE):

He got lots of cute outfits and many books for his library! I am still going through everything and finding homes for things! I am loving "nesting" in his room. Here I am, 33 weeks! (now almost 35, its getting soooo close!)

34 weeks

32 weeks!

3 reasons I love being pregnant

FAQ's

We all know with pregnancy comes unsolicited advice, and awkward questions from everyone. Now, I do not mind either. At all. Please, tell me things I may not know. I want to know everything! And I love being pregnant and any chance someone asks me to talk about it, I will. I thought I'd share what I have been hearing the most of lately in case you too, are wondering.

Are you going to breastfeed?

Yes, yes, yes. I am going to. I catch my self saying "I'm going to try!", but I don't like the sound of it. I will breastfeed. I will. I am terrified of not having milk. That is my one fear. I am ready to endure the pain, and the hard work that is breastfeeding. I am ready for all that...but I fear nothing will come in. I pray everything will go smoothly in that department.

Are you having him at the hospital?

Yes. Home births have no appeal to me.

Are you going to get drugs?

Yes. Natural birth has no appeal to me.

My other biggest fear is having to have surgery. I really want to be able to have a vaginal

birth. I am although having him in a hospital, because I understand things happen and he

may need to arrive via c-section. I am preparing my mind for that.

Does he have a name?

#1 question always. No, he is not named. We are throwing Sawyer around, but it is not set.

My husband fell in love with the name Theodore and has not given up hope for it. I hate that name. We kinda stopped talking about names a few weeks ago. It just goes nowhere. I do not feel like I need to see him to name him, but that may just be what happens.

Are you going to cloth diaper?

Not that I know of. I have some diapers already and I figure people will give me more, so I plan on using those. I haven't done much research on it, but if I did do it, it'd probably be just when we are at home.

Are you going back to work?

As of now, yes. I plan on working about 2o hours a week once he is a couple months old. I hate answering this question because I feel judged. I wish I could stay home, but this was not a planned pregnancy and had it been a year down the road I probably could stay home. We just moved into this home and my income is still needed. I do love my job and it is very flexible and I am so grateful for that. We are trying to work out the budget, downsize somethings and cut out others so my income is not such a big stress.

Will you be pumping?

Yes. I plan on pumping at work. My dear friend lent me her Medela In Style pump (yes I got new equipment for it). I want to avoid formula at all cost. Part of that is because I believe breast is best, but the MAIN reason is because breastmilk is free. I am all about free.

any more questions? ask away! and give me any tips you may have!

30 weeks.

This is a little late. I am 31 weeks today!

boy, I feel like I've grown! well, he has!

28 weeks

yes, I missed week 26. It was not a fun weekend due to the hubs having kidney stones...and I have a hard enough time getting him to snap my photo as it is.

I'm getting so frustrated with these photos. I wish the shoot lasted longer than 1.5 seconds.